sunday night shakedown

tried to make some positive changes today,
slowly,
creeping into a happier healthier person.
that's good right?

does that mean I have to let you go with it?
you have almost let yourself go anyways.
slowly slipping away,

does that make it easier for you?

sometimes I feel like I should be angry it did not work out.
sometimes I felt like I knew what I was getting myself into the whole time.
other times,
I think for a second that maybe for a second I thought it could work,
like I would be the bright shinning thing that saved you.
Pulled you into happiness.

I guess,
again.
It was not the time.