i wish i had a julia childs kinda hat

I would like to wear fancy hats and have some fun and go to courdan bleu school.
I am wondering if there is anything else out there,
or people out there,
but then again I realize everyone is out there,
and everyone is feeling the same way,
at some point,
at some moment,
they feel the same way.

my brother was visiting, off the crab boat.
I can just imagine, his broad bony shoulders coming up over the head of the boat,
lifting heavy crabs out of the water
almost falling in
and i wonder
what he is thinking
and I wonder
if he is not scared.
he pretends to be not scared.
but he always does.
I wonder
how the wheels move in his small head.